My Plan!(:

I've never thought I was fat, I've never been extremely comfortable with my body though. I've always thought I was to skinny or to this or to that. I've never looked the same as my friends and its taken awhile to realize I never will. I still don't always feel comfortable but that's what I'm trying to work on, accepting myself. I've always eaten and been reasonably healthy. I'm trying to find inner peace with everything about me. Sometimes I stutter( a lot of the time) or people tell me I have the "typical dumb blonde person voice" I'm learning it doesn't matter what other people think its what I think. Carlos (pena) has talked about how he stutters which has given me confidence.

My best friend attempted suidcide last year. It was one of the hardest things for me to see. She's one of the strongest girls I know and she doesn't let people help her. My other friend and I had a very difficult time helping her.
She didn't want us to help she wanted to be alone and take care if things in her own. My dusters friend had committed a few months earlier and I had seen the effects on her and her friends lives. I had never been more afraid than I was for those couple weeks. I still worry about her all the time even though she us much better now. That whole situation however messed with my stelf-confidence a lot. I felt like I wasn't good enough for her to stay alive for. I know that there were obviously more issues than that but I myself didn't think that way. All I let myself think was I wasn't a good enough person for someone to want to be around and stay alive for.

These next couple months I am getting rid of any and all thoughts that I am not a good enough person. Whenever I look at myself I'm going to know that I'm the best that I will ever be and noone else can ever be me. I am me and only me. I'm going to be proud of who I am and everything I do because I am worthy and so are you