Post by sea814 on Oct 1, 2013 7:43:13 GMT -8
Hey Choose 180 
I would like to share my story with you as I embark on the journey to Choose180. I hope you take the time to read this and understand how much I appreciate what you guys are doing.
All my life I’ve struggled with various things such as making and keeping friends, my weight, feeling like an outsider, bullies… but I had always been pretty healthy.
During my early years of high school I noticed something didn’t feel right. I was bounced from doctor to doctor, and misdiagnosed. Not feeling cared for by the doctors I saw, it was a very dark time in my life. Not knowing what was going on with my body and mind was terrifying. They kept telling me it was all in my head, I was making it all up for attention, basically telling me I’m crazy. And finally after more than a years worth of searching I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease.
School became extremely difficult. It was physically, cognitively, and emotionally taxing. Things that normally come very easy to me had become very hard. I missed the majority of my junior and senior year, staying home to get better. Going to a high school for the preforming arts, this was very difficult to accept. I wanted so badly to be there, wanted to learn, and wanted to be apart of everything. I even would come to school in a wheelchair hoping to learn what I could by observing.
When not at school, I would stay at home locked in my room, sleeping and watching endless amounts of movies and TV. It was the only thing my brain would let me handle. As I stopped going to school, I began to cut myself off from all social interactions, the idea of talking to anyone seemed like to much work and stress.
But despite all this I never gave up hope. I found comfort in the films I watched and the music I listened to. Heffron Drive being the first thing to catch my attention on MySpace haha which eventually led to Big Time Rush ;D They were my means of escape, my inspirations, my passions.
All signs led me to go pursue a career in film… So that’s what I did, I got myself ready to head to college. When the time was right I did move on out and into the world to learn the craft of my passion. But after a while, my symptoms started to creep up on me. That and much more that weighed on my shoulders.
This forced me to take a break from schooling and get myself healthy and better.
So here I am now, trying to put it all together and put myself first, which I often forget to do.
At the core of my issues, I have discovered is how I feel about myself physically. What people don’t see behind my positive attitude is my suffering from depression and eating disorders and the fact that I was abused. I’m coming out with all this now and public because it’s time for a change, a 180.
I am not going to settle for anything less than what is best for me. I am going to set goals for myself to
A) get healthy
&
B) Love myself unconditionally
You've inspired me to do so and I want to help others who are and have dealt with the same thing.
xx Sar
I would like to share my story with you as I embark on the journey to Choose180. I hope you take the time to read this and understand how much I appreciate what you guys are doing.
All my life I’ve struggled with various things such as making and keeping friends, my weight, feeling like an outsider, bullies… but I had always been pretty healthy.
During my early years of high school I noticed something didn’t feel right. I was bounced from doctor to doctor, and misdiagnosed. Not feeling cared for by the doctors I saw, it was a very dark time in my life. Not knowing what was going on with my body and mind was terrifying. They kept telling me it was all in my head, I was making it all up for attention, basically telling me I’m crazy. And finally after more than a years worth of searching I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease.
School became extremely difficult. It was physically, cognitively, and emotionally taxing. Things that normally come very easy to me had become very hard. I missed the majority of my junior and senior year, staying home to get better. Going to a high school for the preforming arts, this was very difficult to accept. I wanted so badly to be there, wanted to learn, and wanted to be apart of everything. I even would come to school in a wheelchair hoping to learn what I could by observing.
When not at school, I would stay at home locked in my room, sleeping and watching endless amounts of movies and TV. It was the only thing my brain would let me handle. As I stopped going to school, I began to cut myself off from all social interactions, the idea of talking to anyone seemed like to much work and stress.
But despite all this I never gave up hope. I found comfort in the films I watched and the music I listened to. Heffron Drive being the first thing to catch my attention on MySpace haha which eventually led to Big Time Rush ;D They were my means of escape, my inspirations, my passions.
All signs led me to go pursue a career in film… So that’s what I did, I got myself ready to head to college. When the time was right I did move on out and into the world to learn the craft of my passion. But after a while, my symptoms started to creep up on me. That and much more that weighed on my shoulders.
This forced me to take a break from schooling and get myself healthy and better.
So here I am now, trying to put it all together and put myself first, which I often forget to do.
At the core of my issues, I have discovered is how I feel about myself physically. What people don’t see behind my positive attitude is my suffering from depression and eating disorders and the fact that I was abused. I’m coming out with all this now and public because it’s time for a change, a 180.
I am not going to settle for anything less than what is best for me. I am going to set goals for myself to
A) get healthy
&
B) Love myself unconditionally
You've inspired me to do so and I want to help others who are and have dealt with the same thing.
xx Sar
