Post by aloliver1018 on Oct 2, 2013 11:42:08 GMT -8
I grew up in a house that was not supportive, unhealthy and very negative. To give you a little back story: My mom is manic depressive and refuses to seek help and my dad was a paranoid schizophrenic alcoholic that lost his battle with his demons 2 years ago. My childhood was, to say the least, full of chaos. There's a span of about 8 years that I can not remember and I firmly believe it's because I am repressing a lot of negative memories. My mother has very low self esteem and poor body image and I grew up feeling and believing the same about myself. Wrap this up in some paper and slap a bow on it and this is the reason I did not want to have children. Why bring a child into the world when all there is around them is turmoil?
I started dating my husband in 1998 and we got married in 2003. 5 years together and I never expressed to him that I didn't have a desire to have kids. 9 months after being married I had something happen that never happened before: I had the "baby itch". 3 months later, I was pregnant and there was no turning back. Throughout my pregnancy I secretly hoped for a boy feeling that I would be less likely to mentally scar him. On July 8, 2005 my daughter was born. I looked into the eyes of this amazing little girl that my husband and I had created and knew at that moment that I was meant to have her and her alone. At 27 years old I finally realized my purpose in life: To be Lily's mama.
My daughter does not hear the word "fat" or "diet" in our home. My husband and I instill in her to eat normal and healthy. She is an 8 year old power house that has run 2 Kids Spartan Races this past summer. She has her own sense of style and her uniqueness is a quality all it's own. She will work for the U.N. one day because, at 8 years old, Lily is all about human rights. She is not afraid to stand up to anyone if she knows what they are doing is wrong. Lily restores my faith in humanity on a daily basis.
So, what's my point to this story? It all ends with why I'm doing this Choose180 Challenge. My main goal is to follow my daughter's example and show support for those struggling with any issues. My secondary goal is to work up to running a 10k with my husband. At my highest I weighed 260 lbs., my lowest 175 lbs., currently I weigh 205 lbs. But I realize now, at 35 years old, that no matter what I weigh, I am healthy and I am awesome. It took me 27 years to be comfortable in my own skin and I will never be "skinny" and I don't want to be. I make any weight look good. ;-)
I started dating my husband in 1998 and we got married in 2003. 5 years together and I never expressed to him that I didn't have a desire to have kids. 9 months after being married I had something happen that never happened before: I had the "baby itch". 3 months later, I was pregnant and there was no turning back. Throughout my pregnancy I secretly hoped for a boy feeling that I would be less likely to mentally scar him. On July 8, 2005 my daughter was born. I looked into the eyes of this amazing little girl that my husband and I had created and knew at that moment that I was meant to have her and her alone. At 27 years old I finally realized my purpose in life: To be Lily's mama.
My daughter does not hear the word "fat" or "diet" in our home. My husband and I instill in her to eat normal and healthy. She is an 8 year old power house that has run 2 Kids Spartan Races this past summer. She has her own sense of style and her uniqueness is a quality all it's own. She will work for the U.N. one day because, at 8 years old, Lily is all about human rights. She is not afraid to stand up to anyone if she knows what they are doing is wrong. Lily restores my faith in humanity on a daily basis.
So, what's my point to this story? It all ends with why I'm doing this Choose180 Challenge. My main goal is to follow my daughter's example and show support for those struggling with any issues. My secondary goal is to work up to running a 10k with my husband. At my highest I weighed 260 lbs., my lowest 175 lbs., currently I weigh 205 lbs. But I realize now, at 35 years old, that no matter what I weigh, I am healthy and I am awesome. It took me 27 years to be comfortable in my own skin and I will never be "skinny" and I don't want to be. I make any weight look good. ;-)